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Name: Helen
Country: Canada
State: British Columbia
Metro: Richmond
Birthday: 3/17/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Christ, serving in ministries, BSF, Apple, Utada Hikaru
Expertise: Photoshop, Illustrator, inDesign
Occupation: Graphic Designer
Industry: Magazine
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4/23/2003
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| Peter Disowns Jesus 54Then seizing him, they led him away and took him into the house of the high priest. Peter followed at a distance. 55But when they had kindled a fire in the middle of the courtyard and had sat down together, Peter sat down with them. 56A servant girl saw him seated there in the firelight. She looked closely at him and said, "This man was with him." 57But he denied it. "Woman, I don't know him," he said. 58A little later someone else saw him and said, "You also are one of them."
"Man, I am not!" Peter replied. 59About an hour later another asserted, "Certainly this fellow was with him, for he is a Galilean." 60Peter replied, "Man, I don't know what you're talking about!" Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. 61The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: "Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times." 62And he went outside and wept bitterly. --------------------------- That one line is pierces to me...it hits me whenever I see it now. I think when I read it last year during our Matthew study, I wept with Peter. I was just reminded of it during our Good Friday Service.
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| Nope, not engaged yet! But going by the suggestion from a sister at Keith's church who is getting married this July, we decided to go with the workbook that she and her fiance have been going through and I'm quite excited!! =D I just read the intro since I'm not allowed advancing without Keith xD
Ever since grade 10, I've been eager to learn more about myself and I find it fascinating. I don't find MYSELF fascinating (quite the contrary), but just LEARNING about oneself is fascinating. I mean, you would think that just being you, you would know yourself, but the cool thing is that you still need to learn about yourself! hahahaha does that make sense?
It's true, I do think that I know Keith better than anyone else, but this book will make us look at things that we would never have thought of asking or even considering. Some things like looking at our past (I assume Keith will have a lot of "I don't remember"s though T_T), our expectations, how our families will be involved, are probably things that we don't think to sit down and talk about. We do discuss things like that on the phone but this puts us in a formal setting and allows us to really think about it. The great thing is that we can probably sit down and do these exercises/discuss after BSF Leaders Meeting every Saturday~
I've known that Keith and I were heading down this road for a looong time now (before we even started, else I would not have initiated anything), so it's exciting to see us progressing in this step =) There are still a lot of scary things ahead, finances mainly, and meeting Keith's huge family, and deciding where to go to church and everything...but I am always trying to remind myself to stay faithful and know that God will provide! Deep down I really do know as a fact that He will provide, it's just too easy to fall back on old habits of worrying and trying to take control. Everyone knows how much I like to plan things out...
Anyhoos, we still have a long way to go...we are just preparing early. I know that we will last and that we will have a strong marriage even up to when we turn into those cute elderly couples xD but I am also fully aware that it takes a lot of hard work to get there, and I refuse to be lazy and ignorant and think that things will just go along smoothly and everything will turn out like old fairy tales. I know there will be hard times, that we'll get into arguments, that we'll face times where we feel like bailing out (though the phrase 'break-up' has never been in our vocab before either), but that's what we're doing now...we're preparing for all that!
ETA: We've decided to not have a mentoring couple while doing this for now...but we'll save that for after we actually get engaged!
Whoa I just skimmed through the first chapter...there are some pretty intense things! Looks fun! haha
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| I know that I'll have a fifth year, and technically I'm in my "3.5" year, or only at the beginning of my 4th year according to my credits. But according to my book, I entered SFU 4 years ago so look at that...I'm at the fourth year already. It's gone by so fast...every semester is still fresh in my mind, surprisingly. You can ask me a semester and I can tell you every single class I took that semester and what it was like. I guess I'm just THAT consumed with school.
Anyways, this year seems to be a little different. This semester, I mean. It's only the third week but it feels like we've been here forever. The other weird thing is that I'm not stressed out at all about school. I know by this point that I'll graduate and I'll do well. God has already shown me for I don't know how many semesters, that he brings me through completely each time (and by completely, I mean straight A's o.o) and I don't know why it takes so many semesters for it to finally hit. So this semester, I haven't felt stressed for school at all. I just do what I need to do. Maybe it has to do with taking the crazy, intense course last semester that makes this one seem breezy, or maybe the fact that I didn't take project heavy courses and only writing courses this semester...but either way, I feel less stressed about school.
I believe this year will be a big transitioning year for me. I am still sitting in limbo about whether I should do co-op this summer, but I think I'll leave it in God's hands. I'll just apply to one job (the one that seems to fit me extremely well) and if nothing comes out of that then I just go back to school. Not going to try hard or anything to get placed since I really don't need to. And if I end up delaying my graduation by a semester, then I have to graduate in yucky fall in the cold outdoors (unless they move SIAT convocation to SFU Surrey Mezz, then that would be awesome). There are pro's and cons of course...getting co-op means full time pay that I can continue to save up for the future. But God has also shown me continueally that he provides whatever is needed. I gripe about being poor but I sit in such a comfy house with a huge room, laptop, and two cameras which really makes me want to slap myself XD God provides...and when I really need it, he'll provide those jobs (like he is already doing). No need to worry about the future.
Anyways, one of the big transitions that I'm already seeing this year is the moving away from school stress that is landing more on freelance work. I have lots of projects lined up including weddings to prepare for and it stresses me out. I am also working on my professionalism, getting things done quickly and on time, and it's a challenge with school as well, but I think these are all super important lessons to learn especially this year, since next year, I'll be let into the wild with no school to support me. There's no thinking that I am still being trained, it's going to be, this is what I have now, and I have to do something with all of this.
I am also coming to terms with what kind of designer I am this year. I've always been big on magazine design and publishing, and it's starting to come to me that that is probably where my realm of design will be. The clean look of magazines and such. I am not very creative like some designers that create crazy websites that have things flowing out and coming out of trees or whatever but I am very good at imitating and copying which is where I learn most of my design skills. All in all, I think I am better at correcting what's already there than working with a blank state. But who knows, I may still just be developing that area. A clean canvas isn't easy for anyone...it may just be the patience and hard work that I need to get used to doing when starting from scratch. But it's good to step back and analyze this part of me....heh if I were to go and work right now, I would probably do better doing in-house design and following a branding guide than anything else~ Which I really don't mind...that's a steady job with steady income ;)
Anyways, I'm looking forward to what this year has to bring. Marriage is in the works for the next year, year and a half, at most, 2 years, and there is still lots of growing for Keith and I. Housing is dropping, and I'm itching to go out there and look...but it's not the right time yet =/ boo...haha
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| Taken from Fiona~
69 Questions Guaranteed You've Never Answered.
i bet i have answered some of these questions before...
Would you bang your neighbour?
what a random first question.....not even worth answering XD
What describes your relationship status?
practically married
Where are you?
in my cozy room...I usually stay in here until 3PM since I wake up at noon nowadays xD
What's the last movie you've seen?
BOLT funny and cute, but not a Nemo
the last person you held hands with?
who else would I hold hands with?
Who Is Your Best Friends?
I have lots! I just noticed the question is grammatically incorrect xD Keith, Sharon, Phay, Linda, Iris, Anna
Who have you talked to most today?
haha...probably Linda through email and GTalk
Do you carve pumpkins every year?
I rarely do....I think I've only carved pumpkins like, twice in my life
Color of your underwear?
Green, blue, yellow stripes
Color of your shirt?
yellow..and always wearing some sort of sweater and scarf cause its FREEZING
I'm always...
procrastinating?
Who's on speed dial 2? 4? 6?
Home, Mum, Keith
Honestly, how many people do you have feelings for?
one...but I feel for a lot of people...haha the empathetic side of me
Whats your favourite season?
hard to say...I like most of them besides the rain season
Good advice if you ever go camping?
cup noodle
Are you a bad influence?
no, I often notice people going in the opposite direction once I step out of their life...
rather have your name or your siblings name?
iunno, I'm okay with my name~
Would you do anything for someone else?
yes
Have you ever been called a bitch?
I don't think so...
Have you ever been called a slut?
I doubt it
What is your ringtone?
I have personalized ringtones because I like to know who's calling before even looking at the phone...but the default is Hikki's Take 5 intro
Are your grades good?
yes...but not good enough for open scholarship :(
Do you ever think people hate you for filling these out?
whatever...they just won't read it~ what does it matter?
Does your best friend(s) have a nexopia?
nope
Whose page did you visit last?
Fiona's...I took this from her
Last time you went out to lunch?
umm...last Thursday with my parents for shanghainese!
Who is your favorite character from Friends?
definitely chandler
Do you have a tattoo?
nope
Do you want one?
not really...too permanent for me
Do you have one or more Britney Spears CD?
no...but I have some strange fascination with her...
What did you do last night?
finished listening to The Secret Life of Bees...no more audio books for me though...it's way too slow~ I think they're only good for re-reads too when you want to multi-task so you don't REALLY have to pay attention to it
Are you a LOST fanatic?
no...the only drama I watch is...Ugly Betty...and secretly I watch Gossip Girl too ><
What's your name spelled backwards?
neleh
Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
No.
iPod or Zune?
Always Apple
Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
I really don't like it...too much crude humour
King of the Hill?
no....it's kind of boring to me
Do you read trashy romance novels often?
I read them before when I just wanted to read romance and when it got to those parts I skipped those paragraphs (or pages >.>) and then they got too predictable and boring and were too worldly for my taste....haha Even Christian romance novels don't really interest me anymore...
What's the last thing you bought?
a new bible bag! Oh, and earrings, and beads...it's going to be my new hobbie =D
What's the last thing someone bought you?
Keith "bought" me earrings...as in, I used his Paypal xD
Do you ever sing obnoxiously in the shower?
sometimes...just praise songs~
What's in your CD player right now?
MP3 CD of Jeremy Camp, Kutless, and Switchfoot
What's your favourite movie?
Finding Nemo
Another favourite movie?
Wall-E
Do you believe everyone has a soul mate?
I like to think that but I know it's not like that
Can you sing?
I think I can stay in tune...haha
Do you play any instruments?
I USED to play the Piano and I tried the flute for 2 weeks before I returned it xD
Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
HAHA no on cleanliness, but I do go crazy organizing sometimes...as a procrastination tool...
have you ever been to South America or Africa?
nope...wouldn't mind one day but I'd rather travel around Asia and Europe
Do you know how to knit?
No...but after going to the hand-made market with Sharon, I'd like to learn how to =D
Do you have a job?
Yes...various freelance ones...but it's too unsteady...
Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them on facebook?
NOPE...not into the whole poem writing stuff...
What are you doing right now besides this survey?
Watching Jon and Kate plus 8
Last place you went for vacation?
Ummm...camping in Porteau Cove?
Favourite number?
7
Physics or chemistry?
neither....
Facebook or Myspace?
Facebook.
R-rated or G-rated movies?
G-Rated any time~ I didn't like turning 18 and being able to run into movies with gory and raunchy scenes....
Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars?
Harry Potter
Fly or road trip?
Hard to say...you save more time with flying but you have more control with road trips and you can always jump out and take pictures of magnificent mountains and sunsets =D
Batman, Spiderman, or Superman, or the Hulk, or SilverSurfer?
wow...fiona wrote such a long answer for this one xD I'd go with Superman
What's your favorite Disney movie?
There are too many....Beauty and the Beast, Lion King, Finding Nemo, and Wall-E are the top ones | | |
| Over the past year, I've fallen back into the crazy notion that I can control my future and have it all planned out. God has shown me more than once that he can turn that completely around, and every time it is better than any plan that I ever could have come up with. Being in control feels secure....but relying on my own strength stresses me out. Silly me, if only I would relinquish the control to God sooner, I would peacefully just be sitting around waiting for God to work (while doing my part) instead of stressing myself out!
This past year, the plan that has been running through my head is this: graduate ASAP (which is in April 2010), find a fulltime job, get engaged somewhere between, and get married Summer 2010 =) Sounds awesome eh? xD with this reminder to give it all back to God....I wonder what WILL happen? But I guess the fun is in living it out eh? One thing I don't have...PATIENCE. Maybe that's why getting married is taking so long =P haha
When I came up with this plan, I was just freshly coming out of my work term at Active and feeling the high of encouragements from everyone there wanting me to stay and believing in me. My supervisor would tell me that I didn't have to worry about finding a job because the field is open and I've got an edge compared to others because of my work experience and abilities. But as I got more and more into school, working with my peers and getting back into school gear, I lost sight of that and the doubt of my own abilities starts to creep back in. People at school are amazing, and we all have our own strengths and weaknesses...but being in such a competitive environment makes it easy to compare and reevaluate the skills that I do have...
Photography has been amazing. I don't think that I've sat down and thanked God enough for the opportunities that He's thrown at me this year alone. I literally just got thrown into it and God graciously gave me the ability to carry it through. I mean, WEDDINGS are the NUMBER ONE day in a woman's life and to take that into my own hands was scary. But God quietly prepared me towards it as I was following and looking at wedding photographers for an entire year so I was able to develop a good foundation of what makes a beautiful wedding photo versus a family member running around taking photos themselves. I am still learning and there is still so much to improve on...but God is continually giving me those opportunities as I already have two weddings in 2009 booked. It has also helped me in my spending problems and kept me from buying useless things as I am now always trying to save up for photography equipment and lenses which all cost a TON. Now I am careful with even spending a dollar because I know that can add up to a lens that would help me achieve nicer photos in someone's wedding...hehehe
When I said get a full-time job, I was thinking something stable like what I was doing at Active...9 to 5 job and such... It's so much more consistent and secure feeling...I don't know about getting into wedding photography as a full-time job. There are rarely photographers in general who ONLY do photography for a living so I don't think that's the route that I'll take. Perhaps if I get enough design AND photography job it might be enough to make a living but we shall see! God has it all planned out and I trust in his provision in giving me what is needed, when it is needed.
Time to get back to work! I know school is ALL over now for the next couple of weeks (WHOOHOOOO!!) but I have so much other things lined up....I should go make my to-do list, RIGHT NOW. Byebye~~ =)
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